Let's talk energy. Let's talk about the buzz you feel when you are in the presence of a positively radiant person. Or when you walk into a religious building or temple. Even after you leave, that feeling stays with you... regardless of what you practice and/or believe; energy is everywhere. You feel it in your soul. I started my own personal journey with conscious energy after giving birth to my first child. The moment I held this brand new helpless human for the first time, I realized every bit of energy I feel transfers through to him. It was terrifying. The pressure was intense, I spent close to a year being completely consumed with fear. I know this is typical with new mothers, but it seemed to be taking its tole on my health and well being. A friend suggested to come over to redecorate and configure my home to help bring balance and peace. We spent a few hectic days hauling and shopping, but it seemed to be putting more stress on me. I remember having a regretful feeling in my heart. However, the next morning I woke up to a brand new apartment. My friend stayed up ALL night moving furniture, painting, and hanging art. Everything was so beautiful down to the tiniest details. It was one of the biggest energy shifts that I've ever felt in my life. It felt like I was in a completely different apartment. The energy was happy, cheerful, dramatic yet unbelievably calming. It felt like home. This new energy changed my entire life - from how I communicate with my baby and husband, to how I slept. She added conscious intent into my home, it was deeper than interior design. It was meaningful and transcended love.
When you can't find the light within you, take moment to look around and change the vibrations around you. Surround yourself with light and love. Do things that make you happy even if it doesn't make you money.
Over a year ago while I was building Diving Bovine, I met a young balinese man who taught me a lot about energy. In Indonesia, people are encouraged to spend up to five hours a day on their art. They have an entire day dedicated to silence and zero use of electricity. They take their time to pray and fill themselves with gratitude daily. Charging your soul with doing what makes you happy will spread like wild fire. Some americans struggle to see the importance in this. It's a grind day and night with zero time to recharge. What is important are MEMORIES. Memories are energy. When I have a memory flash into my head, I can feel what it felt like, the smell of the room, even taste it. It's undeniably real. These waves of energy are what our children will remember - the feelings, the vibes. I came to realize my children will be happy when I am happy, and creating is what makes me happy. I started small and slow and took my time recharging my soul alone. At first the guilt just about killed me. I would cry for an hour straight feeling so incredibly selfish having alone time. I eventually started feeling a sense of serene calmness, which I took into my house as chaotic as it may have been with two kids. Sometimes after my alone time it would feel like I was walking into a war zone. My poor husband exhausted and spent would hand the reins over to me, and I took on motherhood with peace and love in my heart more than ever. I struggle daily with keeping my positive energy flowing, some days I feel like Mother Teresa and some days I feel like the big bad witch. The first step is knowing that you deserve peace. Honor yourself.
Each one of my pieces have so much meaning behind them. They are a tribute to life after death, as energy lives on. It's brought me true happiness creating these pieces. It's brought a warmth to my soul I've never felt before. It is such a rewarding feeling to understand the energy flowing through me actually transfers through these bones which will fill a room with positive light. I've learned so much about myself doing what makes me happy. I encourage everyone to take time each day to do something that fills yourself with positive energy. I promise you it will be worth it.
I sincerely thank everyone for reading and supporting this journey of mine. It's not just about art, it's about finding light, honoring yourself, spreading love and living life to its fullest potential.
With gratitude and love,